Views:931 | By: Isaac When responsibility comes calling just allow me focus as I have a lot of people watching over me, depending on me and my whole village waiting for the few educated to go change the awful state they are living in. A state of poverty lead by illiteracy.

Despite what or when I must take something home with me.
It really doesn't matter how far the river is, I must return home with water. Even if I will not help quench the thirst of every individual, atleast my mother, my icon, will have it to the fullest.

I had big dreams and focus when I was joining campus, I had many resolutions, changing my home situation being the biggest and the most important. I had to make it up for my parents who had lived a life of struggle and disgrace.

Whenever I think about my life in campus, I just feel see my self a cursed failure who cannot even change his own situation. I never see anything to smile about because even a 'drop of hope', of the water I went to fetch, it never reached home. I can't tell how I ended up being useless, hopeless, fruitless and helpless to my parents who had big hopes on me.

I wish I can have courage to face my villagers who planned for a harambee to try collect some money for my school fees, some personal effects and some for upkeep, only for me to let them down by making their effort fruitless.

Whenever I look around and see the selfless me, I think of going back home, ask for my father's forgiveness and maybe, just maybe try to make up to it with him because for sure even if I made a mistake it wasn't a life sentence. And may God never cease to punish those sluggards who introduced me into gambling and drugs when I was still fresh and took advantage of me when I was just a novice in that.

I may act as a representative of many wasted souls out here who decided to speak out. Youths are dying of depression, due to some mistakes they did unknowingly or knowingly but unconsciously. Let's have time to listen to everyone's story, don't be the judge but try to be his rescue and save a life somewhere.

If only I can have a second chance,for sure I can try make some sense out of my life if not a lot of it.